Veteran ADBL

Iv been an ADBL in mind amongst other things but this would definately get me murdered... I would sooner hang from a ripe lemon tree than taste a bitter sweet fruit being shoved down my hapless throat as i lay dying, gasping for air, stretching hand to my so call friends...

As you may gather i am not positive..

I believe we are all doomed by our choice and desire, thus i hold no grudge to myself and to others choice, i am somewhat Nihilistic in this.

I have never introduced myself like this i never will again unless influenced yet again by excessive amounts of alcohol which is quite commong in my daily life... It is the sole reason i exist....

um.. I'm sorry very sorry you feel this way. If you ever want to chat let me know. but anyway welcome to FTT and you have friends here. Very Happy

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#5 shadow wolf of red rose

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I didnt know there could be veterans. So does this mean you were good but now your old and want your grandson to kill you? Maybe im watching too much king of the hill and mixing with south park.
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Maybe you're not the veteran you think you are. I've spoken to many that feel the same way. I don't think a sexual fetish is something to be celebrated, trust me, I'm not delusional enough to wave pride flags, but it's better to enjoy that you have this kink and explore it at your leisure instead of being so Strindberg about it.

You wrote about choice and desire. I'm going to argue "choice". I don't think I would choose to be into something like this. I think you can choose to suppress desire, but I don't think someone can choose what is erotic to them. I think sexual fetish stems from environmental factors and traumatic childhood experiences. I don't think anyone chooses their fetish.

But you know what? I already like you. Self-hating ABDLs are the best. They're the opposites of the grown-man cyber sluts who pose as babies and practically beg to be changed and coddled.

Unless you're the kind of person who doesn't accept diaper fetishes as sexual and claim it as a "lifestyle", I think you'll be fine. Just do what I do and learn to clear your cache and cookies.

I just hit the wall that night, ill restrain myself from posting such again, and if i do i`ll definately kill my computer so i can never do it again.

As for the threads name, it has no meaning whatsoever i think (perhaps i have known what i am for a long time and the implications thereby). I don`t know what i was thinking that night.

And i don`t think i would like to recover memory fragments either.

I guess it could mean that if word gets out of my fetish i would be socially murdered and would have to move so far away to finally silence thought bullets directed at me. I could not go hold on to my job knowing that eyes pierce me from all directions with a deadly cold. Nor could i bear to look on family and friends any lighter.

That`s just my thoughts on it.

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#5 shadow wolf of red rose

Sounds like you live in a pretty rough town.
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